Dane Sanders, last night. I was very fortunate to be invited to this talk at Christine Tremoulet's studio, where the house was packed to the gills with photogs eager to hear him. It was not really about photography so much as it was inspiration, motivation to wake up, stand out and do things 100%. Dane says he believes in Jesus and part of why he does wedding photography is that his dad died when he was three and he only has one photo of the two of them together. Some of what Dane said applied directly to what I've been wrestling with internally about having a "kingdom vision" and making an impact for God.
Some of what Dane said sounded pretty secular though, the kind of feel-good mumbo jumbo about how we all have so much locked away potential to be great, to change the world. That doesn't quite jive with the idea of total depravity and God's sovereignty, but if he were talking to all disciples of Christ he could've said that because we are made in the image of God and have the supernatural power of the Spirit...we do have potential and God can use us in HUGE ways. It's not to say that God doesn't use non-believers in big ways, He does. But it's ALL Him, it's not us at all. Bugs me when people talk like it's all them.
So I have right now what I would call a quiet confidence, which only comes from Jesus. I humbly believe that I am not called to an ordinary life, and that if I let God use me and point me in the right direction, He can use me to change the world. I'm just not sure what that means at this moment. I'm sure it has to do with serving, and leading as I've said in previous posts.
So I do want to be visible, to be compelling...not for me or for my photography business, but for Christ. I don't have the kind of charisma Dane Sanders has...yet. But I do have confidence, and some gifts and talents. So we'll see.
In the meantime my grandmother goes into the hospital today, to get a blood transfusion in preparation for a knee replacement surgery tomorrow. It'll be a hard next few weeks for both my grandparents, but based on how her knee replacement last year went, I think it will be well worth it. I am praying for the day she and I can wander the mall together like we did when I was much younger...my shopaholism is genetic ya know.