This morning has already been one of crazy mood swings. I start out the day aiming to be especially productive in this last week before the conference. I start out listening to some Christian music, having a positive attitude, keeping everything in perspective. Like a newly bloomed flower after rain, I've got a clean slate, and I proceed to try to reinvent myself again, reframe my point-of-view.
Then sh*t happens. People start calling me and giving me bad news, complaining about each other, forcing me to mediate. I drink too much coffee and eat no breakfast, which makes me hyper and edgy. Nathan throws a fit because he wants to go to the grocery store instead of the Marshall's next door where I have to return the too big pants. I finally get him calm in the store and I get another phone call with more bad news. Good thing I was in public because the F-word starts screaming in my head. Why it's even there (in my head) in the first place is a good question.
Famished, I make an impulse decision to get comfort food at Wendy's for lunch. I consciously tell myself I am eating emotionally, but I'm too hungry and stressed, so I don't care. The worst is when I hear Nathan in the back saying "french fry? french fry?" as we get closer to the Wendy's. When I turn down the street where the Wendy's is (not even IN the parking lot yet) I hear a joyful proclamation of "FRENCH FRY!" from the backseat. That's BAD. My kid eats way too many french fries.
He also has an insanely keen sense of direction. I mean CRAZY. He knows the exact location of every single elevator in the King of Prussia mall, and will passionately point out the way to them from whatever entrance I use. Certain shopping centers elicit an immediate question "Nana?" as we enter, regardless of time or destination, because I might sometimes meet my mom there for lunch. It freaks me out. I swear the kid could direct someone from our house to about two dozen locations within a 10 mile radius.
Here's hoping the afternoon and evening are a little calmer. I'm gonna hafta do some serious running and/or yoga to get rid of all this negative energy.